Painting Energy

How easy it is to get lost in the mental illusions of fear. I am meeting the end of the month with many body sensitivities of very tender breasts, hot flashes, and even nausea. I have attempted to convince myself that I am having psychosomatic symptoms or PMS because like last month it is too early to take a test. I have let my fears seduce me, instead of being in that circulating flowing motion of life, where balance lives without regret or judgment. I feel this inner power of control and needing to get validating evidence to calm my mind. One moment I am just being alive and the next moment I am working through some personal fear that is triggered by many things on my path. My resistance just fools me into deeper struggle. So, I decided to be creative in my emotional unpredictability and paint; I call it painting energy. My inspiration is a bright orange and fiery red lotus with many petals filling the canvas. It is the painting of conscious conception that is rooted in warm colors like the sun. My mind is free as I paint from the unknown and creative place from within. Peace until next time...

Blissful New Year, Lineage of Women & the Berry Tree

I am still experiencing this new energy of 2010. I have gained a freedom in my heart that rises throughout my body into a happy place and further into a joyful place. I cannot explain why or how, but what I am aware of is a desire to be in my heart. And to experience nature, and be out in the world with this new fun feeling inside.

As for baby making... I continue to hold the intention of inviting a new soul as does my partner. My life continues as I expand into the next phases of self awareness, while my sexual connections deepen with more communication about my needs. I get to change the patterns of past women throughout my family tree, where the roots go deep like many. I get to be the courage for self love & equality, to grow in feminine power, and to expressively act upon sexual impulses without being shamed, but instead empowered. I get to be the sexual spirit that I was told I could not be. I again welcome this new energy from within and nurturer it with love.

In a deep breath ~ I turn to see the sunset against a large red berry tree beside my window and dream of the beauty I feel inside. I appreciate all of humanity in its divinity.

The Pleasures of Surrender

The New Year arrived with passion, peace, inner solitude, deep spiritual connections, and a newly found experience of living from the heart...full time. I feel lifted and free within, and that carries into all areas of my life. My thoughts feel pure and my intentions remain the same for the welcoming of a new soul into the new world.

What will the babies of 2010 enlighten the world with?