When I feel my body and allow it to relax. I feel a peace inside that feels like me. I meditated with the sounds of hemi sync music (works with brain waves) and my small Tibetan golden bowl on my chest. I take the wooden dowel and lightly tap the sounds as it moves through me. I desire clarity and create an intention to hear my divine self. I saw this young girl around four years old sitting on my leg and telling me that my womb is "being ready-ed" for her brother. She was smart, a leader, and not concerned about anything, but sharing this information. I could feel her heaviness and see her so clearly within my minds eye. I do not doubt her and I am excited to meet her someday in flesh or perhaps again in light consciousness.
After the meditation I went about my day and I could feel this tingling feeling around my hips and it felt like something grabbed me in the kitchen- like a child and it sacred me. It was a real feeling. The “veils” of spiritual reality are changing, which is allowing more and more mystical experiences into many lives of people. I am not shy to share my own truth in experiencing things that are not logical. I can no longer fear judgment from others because that is a given. When fear leads the heart, it creates judgment, pain, and confusion. I hope others that know multidimensional truth can feel comfortable enough to share and believe.
More information about pre-birth communication please visit ~ http://www.light-hearts.com/
Tuesday, December 29, 2009
Monday, December 28, 2009
Doubtful Mind and Healing Heart
The holiday chaos has come to an end with in-laws departing. Need I say more? My space is mine again and how I love my space! I enjoy not thinking about catering to others and not having a TV loudly blasting the news into my cells. I like not having to be in constant conversations about stuff. I am reconnecting with my soul that I have missed and that includes a dark peaceful room, healing music, incense and no TV. I do find it unfortunate that I must celebrate, when the in-laws leave, but I know this is a common ritual for many. I do understand that the in-laws have triggered this darkness from within that feels the need to accommodate everyone, which stems from my past expectations as a child. Giving up my very own breath to make peace for others is not welcomed and my lessons continue to fool me, as I meet healing.
The stress of these weeks has shifted my hormones and my mind into doubt and confusion about pregnancy. My physical body convinced me that something else is going on and maybe it was or still is? My body seems to be doing better then last post and after spotting for 1 whole week, which has never been that long before has ended up as my period. I do not feel pregnant and have done the research about periods in pregnancy and some women will have a period the whole nine months, but what about that feeling that women get? I know each woman reacts different to her pregnancy and it is a unique and very individual experience. Some have no idea, while others know right away. Each way is so important to personal development. The process of conception is teaching me about my fears, hopes, and trusting in it all. I am being gifted into a new territory and exploring this new feeling inside.
The stress of these weeks has shifted my hormones and my mind into doubt and confusion about pregnancy. My physical body convinced me that something else is going on and maybe it was or still is? My body seems to be doing better then last post and after spotting for 1 whole week, which has never been that long before has ended up as my period. I do not feel pregnant and have done the research about periods in pregnancy and some women will have a period the whole nine months, but what about that feeling that women get? I know each woman reacts different to her pregnancy and it is a unique and very individual experience. Some have no idea, while others know right away. Each way is so important to personal development. The process of conception is teaching me about my fears, hopes, and trusting in it all. I am being gifted into a new territory and exploring this new feeling inside.
Monday, December 21, 2009
Pregnant?
Is it possible to feel the body starting to change after 1 week of pregnancy? Or is it wishful thinking or some bug? Most information available on-line about pregnancy says that it is too early to tell if conception is happening and that the ova and sperm are greeting one another uniting in a miraculous creation. Those first two weeks are not considered being pregnant and not until 3 weeks is it calculated. In the womb the organic tissues of cells are preparing a space of support, safety, protection, and a nurturing environment. Time will tell for sure.
Having a fever, tender nipples, bloated body, water retention, and fatigue? I had a rare fever in the middle of the night. I did not understand why because I never get fevers? I was not feeling sick. I researched it and discovered that sometimes woman get fevers without any illness in the first weeks of pregnancy. It is a way of balancing out the space. Does that mean I am pregnant? A test is too early to tell because you need a certain level of hormone for the stick test. So the stick test will be in 2 weeks and later midwife to confirm. It is best to test right before your period or just after I have read.
The reality of possibily being pregnant brought up many feelings? I suddenly was scared and unsure of how to feel. I was not excited, but fearful. I felt like I had lost control and I questioned how my body would adjust to it. Would I become helpless under the commands of a baby and what about me? I suddenly found myself with obsessed thoughts that constricted my mind and what I was craving was “the allowing” of this new experience. I can do it with fear, but I also have other options. I can do it with awareness, and recognize the fears, and move through it. Even my partner said to me, “I feel so protective of you and the baby,” and it scared him to feel helpless. He understand that he had to process his own feelings around seeing me not feel good and possibly being pregnant. It brought up this superman archetype, that somehow he needed to save the day, but he could not. He is learning to let go in more then just the process, but in other areas of his life. The journey has just begun into the unknown and uncertain world of new moments and new realities.
Having a fever, tender nipples, bloated body, water retention, and fatigue? I had a rare fever in the middle of the night. I did not understand why because I never get fevers? I was not feeling sick. I researched it and discovered that sometimes woman get fevers without any illness in the first weeks of pregnancy. It is a way of balancing out the space. Does that mean I am pregnant? A test is too early to tell because you need a certain level of hormone for the stick test. So the stick test will be in 2 weeks and later midwife to confirm. It is best to test right before your period or just after I have read.
The reality of possibily being pregnant brought up many feelings? I suddenly was scared and unsure of how to feel. I was not excited, but fearful. I felt like I had lost control and I questioned how my body would adjust to it. Would I become helpless under the commands of a baby and what about me? I suddenly found myself with obsessed thoughts that constricted my mind and what I was craving was “the allowing” of this new experience. I can do it with fear, but I also have other options. I can do it with awareness, and recognize the fears, and move through it. Even my partner said to me, “I feel so protective of you and the baby,” and it scared him to feel helpless. He understand that he had to process his own feelings around seeing me not feel good and possibly being pregnant. It brought up this superman archetype, that somehow he needed to save the day, but he could not. He is learning to let go in more then just the process, but in other areas of his life. The journey has just begun into the unknown and uncertain world of new moments and new realities.
Friday, December 18, 2009
Soul Birth Communication
Soul birth communication is having communication with your unborn baby before birth. Does that sound crazy or confusing? Or completely real and empowering? The soul speaks in whatever language that you are familiar with through feelings, dreams, emotions, thoughts, visual images, and more. I get information in mostly awake vision and my feeling abilities. I have had dreams and emotions as well. It is different for everyone and everyone can do this. It may take practice if you are unfamiliar with creating a language and letting those profound soul experiences into your consciousness.
I have met soul babies before birth when growing inside the physical body within the womb. I have a fun story of meeting twins- a boy and girl of a friend, who said she was having one child. I saw the boy and girl greet me from next to mom and did not think anything of it. When the time came and what was supposed to be one baby ended up being twins a boy and a girl. When babies speak I have noticed it is mostly about awareness of "I am here" and to give wellness information about caring for mom during her ever changing experiences of becoming mother. I have other stories that maybe I will share if it is in reflection to the information.
I have been in connected on and off with my soul child for years. I have recently reconnected and will share my channeled information: (baby may be born Oct. baby is here talking to me. The soul is deciding things - showing a pink light in heart and made up of the most beautiful ethereal energy from the cosmos. Soul baby is making me aware that he/she is from the universe and so happy like a nebulous conscious light that shares great peace. She/he is like 1,000 years old full of information. She is telling me to work on my 3rd eye-congested and needing openness (helpful for me). I ask about my partner. She/he tells me his tummy energy needs balance and feet balancing.......like his feet don't touch the ground- needing deep pressure -massage or walking.
Soul baby continues by saying people are so asleep to the awareness of babies she/ he tells me and that they’re millions of millions of soul baby energies that are ready to be born into the earth realm. He/she said they will not tolerate old ways and have newly refined DNA patterns or some type of cell growth that is different then before. I am not sure what that means. Soul baby says to me "always hear me with your heart...that is the only way we can communicate." He/she is showing me how she is pulling strands of light from my heart up through my throat into my forehead. It is like a wonderland of lights flashing upward. She/he is always here I am told that and comes in and out of my space.
I have met soul babies before birth when growing inside the physical body within the womb. I have a fun story of meeting twins- a boy and girl of a friend, who said she was having one child. I saw the boy and girl greet me from next to mom and did not think anything of it. When the time came and what was supposed to be one baby ended up being twins a boy and a girl. When babies speak I have noticed it is mostly about awareness of "I am here" and to give wellness information about caring for mom during her ever changing experiences of becoming mother. I have other stories that maybe I will share if it is in reflection to the information.
I have been in connected on and off with my soul child for years. I have recently reconnected and will share my channeled information: (baby may be born Oct. baby is here talking to me. The soul is deciding things - showing a pink light in heart and made up of the most beautiful ethereal energy from the cosmos. Soul baby is making me aware that he/she is from the universe and so happy like a nebulous conscious light that shares great peace. She/he is like 1,000 years old full of information. She is telling me to work on my 3rd eye-congested and needing openness (helpful for me). I ask about my partner. She/he tells me his tummy energy needs balance and feet balancing.......like his feet don't touch the ground- needing deep pressure -massage or walking.
Soul baby continues by saying people are so asleep to the awareness of babies she/ he tells me and that they’re millions of millions of soul baby energies that are ready to be born into the earth realm. He/she said they will not tolerate old ways and have newly refined DNA patterns or some type of cell growth that is different then before. I am not sure what that means. Soul baby says to me "always hear me with your heart...that is the only way we can communicate." He/she is showing me how she is pulling strands of light from my heart up through my throat into my forehead. It is like a wonderland of lights flashing upward. She/he is always here I am told that and comes in and out of my space.
Thursday, December 17, 2009
Sexual Freedom
The inhibition of lust, playfulness, and love for a new soul awareness has arrived December 2009. Living in fear of pregnancy as a young woman was not a good feeling, and something that has been worked on as I change and learn more about the divine nature of being. Living in a world that believes morals and values are needed; those morals and values are just stories that keep us chained to ways of living from another perspective and that may not always reflect the heart. My past fears of pregnancy, birthing, and motherhood stems from insecurity and uncertainty that was fueled by my environment. Today, I get to share in freedom, knowledge, and wisdom of my intelligent body and soul.
My personal sexual freedom evolves into something new and unknown, which enlightens my spirit. It has created a new energy in the relationship of deep connection and sexual exploration that may have been lost for sometime. This new found sexual freedom is in joy and welcome of a new soul. During the past few weeks of sexual connection, I noticed or "we" noticed something was different the last time. I am not sure what it was, but I could feel something different inside of me right after. Do I know if I am pregnant….not sure. This feeling is like a guiding angel or some star being offering wisdom. All I can do and would like to do is, just be in life and not worry about it or get overly focused on is it? Or isn’t it? I will know when I need too. I am not the only soul involved in this story.
My personal sexual freedom evolves into something new and unknown, which enlightens my spirit. It has created a new energy in the relationship of deep connection and sexual exploration that may have been lost for sometime. This new found sexual freedom is in joy and welcome of a new soul. During the past few weeks of sexual connection, I noticed or "we" noticed something was different the last time. I am not sure what it was, but I could feel something different inside of me right after. Do I know if I am pregnant….not sure. This feeling is like a guiding angel or some star being offering wisdom. All I can do and would like to do is, just be in life and not worry about it or get overly focused on is it? Or isn’t it? I will know when I need too. I am not the only soul involved in this story.
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
Intuitive Me
What I do to create my birth awareness is in meditation, body movement, holistic healings, and prolonged conversations with my partner about joys and fears of birthing and child raising; with new thoughts always showing up, as I evolve on this spiritual sojourn called life. I explore my birthing options in what works best for who I am as an intuitive, holistic and passionate hearted soul.
Conscious Conception?
This story begins with words, thoughts, and feeling all building around the journey of conscious conception into motherhood of the awakened woman. Conscious conception is the conscious awareness of exploring emotions, feelings, beliefs, behaviors and the history of life around conception. Further experiencing what it means to be a mother or father before the birth of your child. It is conceiving the ideas of being a parent and what that is? How it makes you feel? What is needed to be a parent? How was I raised and how will that effect parenting my child? What are my fears? What are my hopes? The list of questions goes on and on; that is the greatest thing about self awareness. Awareness is a gift that all people possess; it is just a matter of allowing the energy of self discovery to move through all spaces of the mind and body. Exploring and preparing through an unbound emotional quest, which promises to bring forth a conscious awareness of a birthing experience.
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