My mind has quieted enough for me to feel the alignment of living my life with an open heart to conception. My past months have been a struggle with fears of wanting, control, sadness, and confusion. Why am I not prego? What are these body feelings? Could I or couldn't I be? Too many mental questions and it was exhausting. I have forged an understanding of the psyche and spirit. That my spirit is the wise one and my psyche...well can fool me often.
In those experiences I did learn many things. I learned that I am a trusting and intuitive being with pregnancy or without. I am done with that silly fertility stick. My partner thought it was a great idea and I was even accused of doing it wrong. You can't do it wrong! Pee on stick and read. How simple. That is what happens a fight over it. What I discovered was it put pressure and lack of trust on the process of allowing conception. It works for others, but it depends on the consciousness and for me...I was not happy thinking that science was controlling my outcome to conceive. That somehow a stick would be the guarantee that I would be pregnant and it is not. Just because someone is fertile does not mean they will be pregnant.
So, I will continue to be open sexual and lustfully in beautiful actions of creativity with my partner. In that, I will enjoy life and keep posting my thoughts and feelings on my journey.
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