No more of that "trying" for a baby. I have finally found peace in conception where it is not a science experiment that has ingredients and outcomes. I am not evening going to share my worries or fears or even tell my partner we have to have sex now to have a baby. That seems to just create pressure and is un-intuitive, especially knowing that it comes from a place of fear. I want nature and spirit to conceive and create the next steps. With kind advice from an old friend that reminded me of this profound and simple truth that has allowed me to relax and be free.
I am enjoying the raw and sensual connection that brings two people together in a passionate lust of love and pleasure. It has helped that the energies are changing and my own awareness to experience a new world has arrived. It is bringing me into a heart aligned space where reality is meant to be. I saw its light structures laying upon the old world of greed, pain, and suffering. How both worlds are living in the same place and how where my thoughts and energy go will be apart of that creation. I am in the new world, where my work, money, life is full of limitless abundance. It is manifesting in it's own way and I am holding for the best outcome with positive thoughts. I refuse to live in the negative experiences in complete...meaning I will not just let the self defeating thoughts take hold of all of me. I will be in my divine center in the revolting chaos of negativity and let go of all the things that do not bring me peace.
My soul is taking me into a new place and in that I will wait and watch the unfolding of my new self in body, mind and spirit. It is new and unknown to me, but I am embracing it regardless because I can. What will be next? Life will show me who I am and truth continues to gift me with sensitivity. Life comes down to...me... in a world that I have been so involved in creating for life times, otherwise I would not be here in this moment.
Wow, this is very powerful! Thank you for sharing your story!!
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