My June pregnancy has been painfully transformative. My spiritual cleanse took so much energy from my mental and physical body. I was trapped by the nausea that would cripple me into not leaving the house or bed. Eating crackers, pretzels, bread and water was my enemy creating more pain in my tummy. Emotionally, I questioned the process of pregnancy and if I was ready for it all. A dark veil covered me with intense thoughts about death and life. I later realized that I needed to let this old part of me die in order for the new me to emerge.
Many wonderful women told me to hang in there and that it would be temporary and shared personal stories of physical pains and how it gets better. I was told some negative things also like it will be like this the first trimester and all I thought was 10 more weeks! My intentions proved everyone wrong. I intended to be less nausea each week and it has worked. I have felt the past years that I move through things with energy rather then the mind. Taking great care of my psyche, body, and spirit.
Today, I feel so much better and the darkness has lifted and with all the planetary changes I could see why things have been wild. During June and July I continue to receive and give myself energy therapy. I have discovered a new me that lives in action and desires to fully be aligned by my heart. I am showing as of yesterday. My little bump has seemed to come over night with the full acceptance of her energy within me. Will my baby kumquat be a she or a he? The soul walked around ungenderous with moments of boy and other of girl. Soon the connect will be strong for sure and baby will pick who he/she wants to become.
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