My fertile time was scientifically marked as the first week of May, which many holidays happen to occur, such a gift. Beltane festival, which is a celebration of the spring to summer season change in between the moon cycles. The flower Goddess of fertility, as well as May Day and Cinco de Mayo. My partner and I celebrated in sharing in sexual energies of welcome and letting go.
The experience of euphoria filled my heart for about the first two weeks of May and it was with strong feelings of what it feels like to love a child that is from my own creation. I had a clear feeling of how mothers feel. I did not suspect anything and went about my days until my arrival of my period. I started to have some physical feeling of constipation, tender breast, extra sleep, very hungry, and later left sided ovary/ uterus soreness. I told myself it could be PMS. I come home from work May 20, 2010 and needed to do the pee stick because I had to be pregnant. Of course I do it wrong, holding the stick upside down and wondering why it was white. I turned it over and two hot pink lines means your pregnant. I cheered in excitement. I guess I am and maybe 3 weeks. After prenatal visit with Birthing Sanctuary midwives I am 5 weeks prego!
What's next? I started eating more because I can not stand the starving feeling in my belly and my uterus feels sore from time to time. I realize that baby bud is growing in each day. My plants in my bedroom after years of death have decided to grow rich and full of life......my fertile energy is being shared. I have moments of anxiousness and still in the high of it. I feel like I have entered a secret society of pregnant world and I got the pass to get in. My spiritual birth has began into the next levels of conscious conception to conscious pregnancy. Later I will share some meditations and energy sessions that visit the soul that walks between worlds.
What I do know is that the change is upon me with deep awareness of all things. I am a host and holder of this light that will be greeted in the age of Aquarius.
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